Bare With Me, I'm New At this!!!

OK ya'll I'm gonna try my hand at this whole blogging thing. i don't know if I'll be able to do it or if I'll actually stay on top of this so just bare with me while i figure this whole thing out!!

so as ya'll all know i have had some pretty crappy luck the past couple of years when it comes to my health. but i am VERY happy to say that has not been the case here lately! 1st i found out on the 7th that i only have a few more treatments and they will most likely be declaring me CANCER FREE!!!!! then i found out last week on the 14th that my doctors in Richmond have agreed to try another muscle transplant (the same surgery i had when Taylor was 3 months old)one more time before they decide to do the bone fusion on my left shoulder. and that is REALLY great news. the last thing anyone ever wants is to loose the use of a arm! so i am EXTREMELY happy they are willing to try this transplant one more time. so please pray along with me that it works this time! i also found out yesterday that i got my health insurance back! it's completely amazing/ridicules how much medications are these days. you have no idea what a burden this takes off me!

The Story of Me And Tony

As you all know i have been dating Tony Addesso for a while now. he is truly amazing person. after 28 years of never being IN LOVE i was starting to worry that i was unable to TRULY be in love. of course i have loved boys before but i was completely aware that i had never been IN love yet. well that has certainly changed! Tony is the most amazing guy i have ever met. he treat me great and most importantly he is fantastic with Taylor. she loves her "nony" and "dake" to death! we have seriously been discussing possibly getting married. but nobody needs to worry we would never do it before next spring/summer. even though everything is picture perfect right now marriage is permanent and we still need some more time to really get to know each other before we make it official. so nobody needs to worry about us "rushing into" anything legal anytime soon. it is almost scary how easily our two families have come together. our children love each other and have made the transition extremely well. almost to easily to be honest. but i can't tell you how lucky i feel to have the opportunity to marry and spend the rest of my life with my 1st love. there isn't a whole lot of people who are able to say that.

it turns out that tony had been interested in me for quite some time. he is able to tell you EVERY TIME he ran into me out-and-about over the past year and a half, what i was wearing, and even how i was wearing my hair! he was just too intimidated to talk to me! the very 1st time we ever met he came up to macados and when i got off work Jason,Chris Buckingham, and Amanda came up there and we all hung out for a little while. anyway, when Tony got there he saw me and came up to talk to Chris and sat with us for a little while. he was asking Chris about me and after everything he told him he finally told Tony that i was engaged to Jason. the extremely ironic thing was that tony made the comment that he just wanted to find a good girl for himself and Jason pointed to me and i jokingly said "what the hell are you offering me to him!" to Jason. who would have ever thought that not only would he be the next person that i dated but that i would fall head-over-heels in love with him and be spending the rest of my life with him!!! i had been checking out his myspace page for a good while just looking at his pictures and stuff and finally one night i just sent him a random message. he wrote me back and as i was reading it he was still online and sent me a instant message. we started talking and exchanged phone numbers. we started texting each other almost immediately and met up at macados three days later. we sat there talking and getting to know each other for a while and i had other plans that night so i had to leave. but i really didn't want to. i went to my friends house and was texting Tony the whole time i was there! finally at 1am we decided i was gonna come over to his house and watch a movie. (anyone who knows me now knows i never really hang out anymore much less "late night" like that so i obviously had a pretty big crush on this guy to do something so out-of-cariter and spontaneous like that!) we watched 8 seconds and i knew right then that i was in trouble! but i had no clue how much my world had really changed for the rest of my life. i can't began to tell you how much i love this man and how happy he makes me. we started seeing each other about 2 weeks before i started getting my chemo treatments and he has been so amazingly supportive threw all this. the day i washed my hair and a huge handful of hair came out (luckily i never lost too much) he just held me for the longest time and promised me that even if i lost it all he would still think i was beautiful. when i get really sick from my treatments he is always right there bringing me anything i may need, carrying me back and forth to the bathroom or the bedroom, and even emptying puke buckets! he has just been soooo sweet, patient, and overall amazing threw this extremely hard and stressful time. i don't know if i would have been able to do this without him.